riseafterfalling:

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I hate being alone. I don’t mean just on a relationship level. I don’t know what I am doing wrong, maybe I am just pushing people away and I don’t realize it, but I rarely do anything anymore. I’m never around people, I’m always fending for myself and it gets so tiring. I hate being so strong all the time, why can’t I have someone to lean on? Friends, lover, whatever.

And then there is feelings. i hate feelings.

Imagine going downstairs on Christmas day and your favorite band member sitting under your tree with a bow on their head omg 

Which head is the bow on?

I wonder what it’s like to have someone fall for you. And I mean really fall for you. Not just they want to get in your pants because they think you’re attractive. But be consumed with every little piece of you. The way you talk, the way you laugh, the way you just exist. To everyone in love: you don’t know how lucky you are.